No small matter
serene, equanimous
realm of the middle way
wholly integrated with
the design of nature
perfect goodness
without evil
going back to the origin
returning to the basis
the spiritual embryo
takes on form
emparting the bliss
of freedom and nonstriving
within reduction there is increase


"The mind of Tao is the master,
the human mind is the servant."

"Practioners of the Tao should turn their attention inward to nurture
the light of awareness."

"Depending on whether awareness is internal or external, there is
a difference between disparity and nondisparity, between unity
and disunity."

"When practioners of the Tao get to the stage of taking (yang) from
~ water ~ and filling in (the yin) in ~ fire ~, so that water and fire settle
each other, they are fortunate to accomplish this after untold exertion
and toil; then they seal it securely and guard against danger, they
thereby complete the work that requires striving. Otherwise, if they
relax and stop working, the firing process goes amiss, unsettling
what has been settled, losing what has been attained. Therefore
the methods of striving and nonstriving are to be used according to
the appropriate time. The ultimate accomplishment is when being
and nonbeing are one, emptiness and fulfillment are both included,
and essence and life are both comprehended."

The Taoist I Ching

There is always this question of what happens after we awaken?
And the answer is everything and nothing. It is said that if you
truely wish to be given everything, then you must first give
everything up - learn to die before you die.

What happens after we have awakened? Tender sprouts
require good soil and a solid foundation to grow stout
and strong. Freedom is forgiveness.

"When the force of mundanity is congealed and stagnate,
practioners of the Tao should use intense effort to burn
it away; then when the celestial energy has returned
they should use gentle effort to nurture it. Each phase
has its proper time, which does not allow deviation or
delay."

"Once faults and wrongdoings are eleminated, there is
no more need to work on mastery and control."


This work of fulfilling nature...
i live here in this moment
aware that the landscape
we planted belongs to
someone else, but with
early morning coffee
the view of unfolding
lilies is spectacular
it has been a good spring
leading into the early summer heat
living this life, walking this path
somewhere along the middle way
this is my home ~ this is my life.

Of all the previous incarnations
student, philosopher, necessary recluse,
wrongly accused criminal, and more
recently carpenter and landsacper
etc... so many wheels set into motion
to end up here ~ surviving the 'crack '
invasion next door, held hostage
in my own home under siege
'because they could' - invade your life
to cast you in the darkest light
you suspect by no coincidence
revealed to you in a dream
beneath the microscope
of close public scrutiny
no stone goes unturned
we live by the rule of invalidation
that is how things here get done
What are respect and credibility
if not visible in the fruits of our labors
this has been my career...
to be held accountable for
a few careless words from a place
that can never be heard upon
the surface of things long ago...
and so the journey begins
transpersonal emergence
without a safty net
so few live to tell the tale
that this awakened state of being
is only the first step in learning

According to Jung there are
at least two distinct forms
of transpersonal awakening;
that within a group setting
and that of a solitary individual.
he points out that, although
this is relatively easy to invoke
within a group, the effect
doesn't tend to induce
any lasting change
and like an addict
the devotee or religious
participant must return
continually to get his/her fix
it doesn't matter the setting;
a free will pentecostal revival
or an all out Rave
the results are invaribly
the same, a sense of something
far greater beyond ourselves is
revealed to us as we escape
the drudgery of this mundane
existence... More rare is the
solitary seeker of inner certitude
who suddenly finds this place
of oneness where the individual
no longer exist in the moment
of awakening... early transpersonal
psychologist would call this
a state of 'spiritual emergency'

How is it we to often operate
under the mistaken impression
that inner illumination will resolve
all of our problems as if the idea
of enlightenment were some kind
of end in and upon itself...
So many books have been written
about this notion of what it means
to ~Be Here Now~ but
that is where the similarities end
where Leary meets Albert... And so
many popular schools of thought
teach us this pseudo science
of kundalini rising as a path
to wholeness through
tantric practice as popularized
by Crowely in his book of the law
written way back in the 50's
giving birth to a whole New Age
of ecstatic connections
placing the earth above heaven
in our quest to become
equal with the Gods...
So how are we to live within
this new agreement?
Where east meets west and this
'what the bleep' mentality
begins to take effect?
Yes, we say 'Love' is the key
but who gives us permission to awaken
if not the group or the teaching
we are most familiar with...?
Yes it is a New Age of self empowerment
of exploring our deeper recesses
our shadow side our totem teachers
the dark feminine within us all.
How do we reconcile all this with
who we are? Sufi, Taoist, terrorist
or buddhist we all have our core
beliefs ~ how we choose to live
this life caught in the mundane;
secrets of the mystery schools,
or those who would claim
to be spiritual but not religious
New Age, pagan, wiccan witchs
or those who practice sorcery
or practice black magic
each has it's own notion
of revealing relative being
where everything that is hidden
remains in plain sight, yet
within this age of instant gratification
where disorderly mobbing
preachs "Butterflies not Bombs"
something gets lost in translation

Freedom has a cost and like respect
must be earned, it can never be given
or taken for granted.

"To try to eliminate errant thoughts doubles the affliction;
to aim for reality as it is also is a mistake."

"Not getting ahead, not falling behind, not tense, not lax,
taking advantage of the right time to get to work, anyone
can obtain benefit. But the way to obtain benefit requires
knowledge of the southwest position of earth... 'The
medicine comes from the southwest... I clearly explain;
you should remember. I'm only afraid when you encounter
it your recognition won't be true.' Do you suppose the
southwest postion of 'earth' is easy to know?'"

I Ching